teary trip to doctor

8 Feb

I have been sick, as you may know. Nothing serious just a stupid cold! That would not go away! My ear started bugging me so I went to see the doctor. Doc prescribed an antibiotic for lingering respiratory infection (that stupid cold that wouldn’t go away was really a respiratory infection) and cream for my ear rash thing.

I paid special attention to my blood pressure and it was awesome, 126 over 72. I asked when my last blood work was done – September 2008. The Shrinking Jeans Sisters have me thinking about all these things and when doc came in I asked if we could schedule blood work just to have numbers and he thought it was a great idea. I even asked for a printout of my weight over the years. I wanted to see where I really started.

I looked at the numbers and the dates. I am going to list them here.

2.8.03: 202

8.20.03: 189: worked 2nd job as waitress all summer long.

10.2.03: 198: no longer waiting tables, back in college. Started dating Big Man right around this time

11.20.03: 210:; 2 weeks later I will be engaged!

2.28.04: 228: Moved in with Big Man couple of weeks prior.

5.13.04: 227

10.5.04: 230

1.3.05: 234

4.9.05: 230

5.26.05: 233

6.23.05: 236

8.19.05: 237

12.5.05: 242

2.27.06: 243

3.13.06: 243

8.3.06: 231

12.29.06: 235

7.3.07: 235: got married and graduated college 2 months prior

8.22.07: 235

10.12.07: 239: prescribed Chantix to quit smoking!

12.11.07: 246

1.26.08: 250: I quit smoking but gained some weight!

3.15.08: 244

6.13.08: 244

11.14.08: 242: joined Weight Watchers one week prior.

6.17.09: 210

2.4.10: 197

Seeing the number saddened me! Somehow I forgot all about hitting 250. I mean, seriously! I was looking through the printouts and my jaw dropped when I read that spot. It was 3 months after quitting smoking. I smoked for 15 years. Please don’t lecture! I quit! October 23, 2007 was the last day I had a cigarette. I am super proud of myself for quitting. So, I am torn! Part of me is sad about 250 but on the same hand, I quit smoking! aaah! I will not dwell on that for too long.

The doctor’s scale says 197, which is up from my last WW meeting but I did go to doc right after eating lunch and I knew I was up a bit but not that much. Who the hell knows! Scales suck and I am not really stressing which one is right and what not. I will go by my WW meeting scale for the most part. And really, the scale is not the only tool I am using! I will take measurements this weekend.

But, according to the doctor’s scale I have dropped 53 pounds from my highest weight approximately 2 years ago.

Freaking amazing! I totally teared up sitting in the room reading my weight and reliving the whole up and down. Certain dates  I made notes on for significant ups or downs.

I feel a bit silly but I did get all teary. Certain dates are so important. The day I went to doc to ask about Chantix. The visit when I doc called me a non-smoker. I could go on!

Today is Monday and I have not worked out in over a week. I may have used being sick as an excuse, not at first but definitely during the snow storm. I feel better and I actually was super productive today. School was closed for a SNOW day and I cleaned my house and did laundry like a mad woman! I did not work out but seriously, I could not workout with the house as cluttered as it was. I will post about the de-cluttering mission later this week. I am totally an ADD case, not officially diagnosed but I swear I have the attention span of a gnat sometimes! I can live with some messes but sometimes it is too messy for me to do anything but straighten it all!

So, today I straightened the house instead of working out.

and that is ok!

90% of losing weight and changing my lifestyle is mental!! I keep reading that phrase this week! It is such a true phrase! I have to get past the mental bull shit! I did great until I got sick and I am not exactly sure how to get past this slump. Today helped! Organizing and de-cluttering had a very therapeutic effect.

It sounds cheesy but I am ready to tackle my workouts again! Not at this very moment, it is almost 10 at night. I am going to start up tomorrow. I am going to get in my Walk at Home workouts for next 4 days. Tomorrow night I will join @shrinkingjeans with a last chance tworkout. I will do another version of last chance tworkouts at least one more time this week and I will try a workout I have never tried before: either some sort of dance workout or a pilates class.

I have my best weeks when I work out consistently. I feel so awesome when I work out consistently. This week I will strive for consistency.

I think that is a good goal for this week! I am gonna have a great week!

Hope you all have a great week!

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22 Responses to “teary trip to doctor”

  1. Trish February 9, 2010 at 7:55 am #

    I am soooooo PROUD of you…you have done an amazing job Jen!!!You are amazing!!!

    • bwJen February 10, 2010 at 9:28 am #

      Thanks Trish! I am feeling pretty dern proud of myself these days! I think that is why the tears flowed at the doctor's. I wasn't sad. xoxo

  2. colleen_mouse February 9, 2010 at 9:25 am #

    That is awesome that you are down over 50lbs and even more awesome that you have quit smoking for so long!!!! Hope you are feeling better and good luck with the working out! I like to declutter too…I remember when I was in college I could not sit down to study in a cluttered room.

    • bwJen February 10, 2010 at 9:30 am #

      Thanks Colleen! I am feeling much better! and it is kind of reassuring to know I am not the only one with declutter issues! xoxo

  3. Jenn_watchmybuttshrink February 9, 2010 at 1:13 pm #

    Wow, I think it's great you quit smoking after 15 years!!! And now you're on your way down with your weight, so you are doing great all around!

    • bwJen February 10, 2010 at 9:34 am #

      thanks Jenn! xoxo

  4. cuteangel79 February 9, 2010 at 1:31 pm #

    Woo! that is so awesome that you are under 200 I want that so much but I keep going back up my biggest was 228 and now im back to 218 I will be so excited when the scale reads 199, eventually I want to be at 150s like I was in high school. You should be proud of your accomplishment

    • bwJen February 10, 2010 at 9:36 am #

      You can do it!! You will hit your goals!!

  5. kia February 9, 2010 at 7:08 pm #

    Get better soon. I hope you kick that nasty infection quickly. Also congrats on being down 50 in the last 2 years. Have a great week and next week you will be healthier.

    • bwJen February 10, 2010 at 9:40 am #

      Thanks, Kia!

  6. Rachel Ostrander February 9, 2010 at 11:42 pm #

    That looks quite a but like my numbers. 50 lbs to lose is a lot, and you did it! Just keep plugging away at it and you'll feel amazing!

    • bwJen February 10, 2010 at 10:49 am #

      I still want to lose another 50 but I will get there!! WE will get there together!!

  7. Bookieboo February 10, 2010 at 12:58 am #

    You don't need to be upset. That is in the past. You have come from that. The only thing you need to concentrate on is what you have accomplished. You have accomplished a great feat. Keep that in mind. Looking back to make yourself feel bad is futile…be proud girl! XXOO

    • bwJen February 10, 2010 at 11:14 am #

      Thanks Leah, It was just so emotional! Seeing my numbers triggered memories and the thought of how far I have come…all the sudden tears were flowing. They were good tears. I am proud!! Thanks for all the support and encouragement!! xoxox

      • Bookieboo February 10, 2010 at 2:18 pm #

        Anytime girl! I am REALLY proud of you! XXOOLeah SegedieBookieboo LLCChief Mom of OperationsBookieboo Fitness Hangout for MomsMamavationSerenity Now “Women who behave rarely make history.”

  8. Mel @ A Box of Chocolates February 10, 2010 at 11:30 am #

    Girl you lost over 50 pounds…that is awesome!!! I never trust the doctors scales, they notoriously lie. Go with your scale where you consistently weigh. I'm very proud at how far you have come. You were my inspiration on twitter the other day when you were cleaning our ass off. Made me finally get up and do something too. Even after reading this I'm thinking I need to go tackle something. Maybe the dishes that are overflowing from the sink and the closet that scares me when I open the door as I think I'm going to be buried alive. Thank you for inspiring me!! Cannot wait to hang out at FitBloggin!!

    • bwJen February 10, 2010 at 12:36 pm #

      thanks Mel!!Clutter and Clutz are my middle names! I swear! I should post my pics!! ok,I am off to do just that!FitBloggin can not get here fast enough!!XOXO

  9. Mel @ A Box of Chocolates February 10, 2010 at 11:30 am #

    Girl you lost over 50 pounds…that is awesome!!! I never trust the doctors scales, they notoriously lie. Go with your scale where you consistently weigh. I'm very proud at how far you have come. You were my inspiration on twitter the other day when you were cleaning our ass off. Made me finally get up and do something too. Even after reading this I'm thinking I need to go tackle something. Maybe the dishes that are overflowing from the sink and the closet that scares me when I open the door as I think I'm going to be buried alive. Thank you for inspiring me!! Cannot wait to hang out at FitBloggin!!

  10. South Beach Steve February 11, 2010 at 7:30 am #

    Jen, it is tough to look back and let ourselves see how far we let ourselves go, but you know what? You are doing something about that now, and for that, you should be congratulated. I am proud of your success so far. Keep it up!

  11. Trayce @trulytrayce February 11, 2010 at 10:18 am #

    Jen you are an amazing, beautiful woman. This is a battle for so many of us and just look at all you have accomplished so far!! I'm so happy to have connected with you and be on this journey with you. You inspire me and I think the world of you for conquering smoking and weight gain and just everything! Those tears were joy from how far you've come! NOWWW let's focus and we totally have this!!! XXOOO

  12. South Beach Steve February 11, 2010 at 12:30 pm #

    Jen, it is tough to look back and let ourselves see how far we let ourselves go, but you know what? You are doing something about that now, and for that, you should be congratulated. I am proud of your success so far. Keep it up!

  13. Trayce @trulytrayce February 11, 2010 at 3:18 pm #

    Jen you are an amazing, beautiful woman. This is a battle for so many of us and just look at all you have accomplished so far!! I'm so happy to have connected with you and be on this journey with you. You inspire me and I think the world of you for conquering smoking and weight gain and just everything! Those tears were joy from how far you've come! NOWWW let's focus and we totally have this!!! XXOOO

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