it's time to go…

26 Sep

I will get to this in a minute, but first I must ramble in my normal Jen way!

Almost two years ago I walked in to my very first Weight Watchers meeting. That was November 8, 2008. I stopped going to Weight Watchers meetings over a year ago. I liked my meetings but I was going for the socializing aspect and not the actual losing weight thing. I felt like I was wasting time and money that I just didn’t have to waste.

Last summer I finally dropped below the 200 mark and I guess I got a bit cocky. I knew what had to be done to lose the rest of my extra fluff.  Let me be honest, I have not been focusing on losing weight. I have not really lost any weight in the last year. I have maintained but not lost any new weight.  I guess it is good that I have not gained all that I lost but I still am not thrilled with myself. I have lost my focus. I have had a ton of other stuff to focus on and I won’t even bore you with the details.

But, I will tell you this: I AM DONE being in denial! I need to focus and I need to lose weight. My body feels amazingly better since I lost the initial 45 pounds. My body feels stronger than ever. I am now running when I haven’t run since high school and had to stop then because of knee issues but now when I run my knees don’t hurt.

I realize that at 195+ (I don’t know the exact number) I am still at a higher weight than I was before I was pregnant. Well that baby is now 11 years and 3 months olds. I would say 12 years is a long time to still carry baby weight. I don’t remember exactly what I weighed when I first found out I was pregnant but I seem to remember 160.

New goal: Lose the last of the “baby” weight!

HOW?!?!

I am going back to BASICS: Move more and eat less!

Sounds easy, right?!?

Except, if it was so easy I would have been doing it all along. To be fair to myself, I have been okay in the eating healthy department and okay in the moving/fitness department. Just okay is not good enough but without just okay I would have gained not maintained. I still have to think of all the positives – it’s who I am!

I have to go back to the newness I felt when I first started this whole journey. But I also must keep with me all that I have learned.  AND I have to be completely honest with myself. My portions are out of control and I have been allowing myself “treats” because I deserve them. All my hard work running and working out – doesn’t do much good if I eat too much or the wrong food. What I deserve is to treat my body with respect and feed it properly for what I am expecting out of it.

When I first started this journey, I measured all my food and read all the labels. I also ate a ton of pre-packaged food at first: 100 calorie packs, frozen lean cuisines or the likes. Now, I do not eat the pre-packaged stuff very much at all (hardly ever) and most meals are totally fresh. I have changed the way my family eats and this has not been exactly easy. Initially eating healthy cost a lot more but along this journey I had to learn a lot about budgeting.  The budget has been supersuper tight the last few months but I have found ways to stretch our limited resources. We have a local butcher shop that has great quality chicken and meat at extremely reasonable prices (cheaper than the grocery and better quality) and an awesome produce store that sells really cheap veg (5 pound bags of potatoes for a buck, 3 head of romaine for 2 bucks and other deals like that).  I have been buying only what’s on sale from the grocery store, which has been a lot of pasta (regular white pasta) and rice and canned beans.

As I am writing this I am evaluating how I have been eating. I realize I am eating the right stuff 80% of the time but I have not been watching my portions.  I have not been paying enough attention.

FOOD BASICS:

1. EAT 6 fruits/veg each day

2. Drink 100 ounces of water each day

3. Track food each day. I have looked at a few websites for calorie counting and that is just too confusing. I have no idea which site is accurate and of the three I have looked at not one gives me the same daily calorie number. I will not go back to paying for Weight Watchers (not very frugal, huh). I am simply going to keep a little notebook with me at all times and write down everything I eat or drink. Maybe I will figure out the calories at the end of each day and see what my average is after a week.

Fitness basics:

1. 2 (or 3) short runs, 1 long run per week

2. 2 yoga workouts per week

3. daily stretching and post-run icing down

Yes, I have a half marathon in 3 weeks. No, I am not remotely ready. I wasted way too much time this summer being depressed about our financial situation. I wasted way too much time hoping and wishing the heat would break this summer. I did not train properly but I am getting into the swing of training. I will finish my half – it may not be pretty but I will finish it. I have finally found the place where running is my thing – I like it, I may not be all that good at it and I may walk as much as I run, but I really like the way running makes me feel. Especially on those hard, mentally challenging runs – the runs where I want to give in but somehow dig deep enough to finish. I have decided that I will complete a second half marathon, one I will train my booty off for, exactly 6 months after I finish my first.

I know what to do, fitness-wise, but I am LAZY! and I PROCRASTINATE!

I MUST CHANGE THIS!!!

I have made the first steps.

While I am getting back to basics I have decided to use two tools to track my progress: the scale and the picture. Every Sunday, I will step on the scale and report the changes. I will also have the husband or the kid take a full body picture every Sunday. I will post both for you to see. This will be my very own Back 2 Basics (B2B) Challenge!!

Starting weight: 242.6 (11/8/2008)

B2B, week 1: 192.6

Change since last week: n/a

Total change: 50 lbs.

*The other part of B2B will be to remember the small things! This week (and every day actually), I am eternally grateful for the friends I have made because I started this journey.

For now, I really want to post so I will update later with a picture!!

Ya’ll have a great day! MUCH LOVE!!

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12 Responses to “it's time to go…”

  1. Kim September 26, 2010 at 2:45 pm #

    Girl, funny that I am reading this now because I was just thinking the SAME EXACT thing. My workouts are on point but my eating has been less than stellar. I’m with you on the back to basics!!!

    @kthenb

    • jeninRL September 26, 2010 at 6:14 pm #

      Kimmie, we GOT this!! xox

  2. Foodie McBody September 26, 2010 at 3:10 pm #

    I’m with you, girl. Back to basics!! And you know, my half in December isn’t going to be pretty either but I am determined to Finish. You’ve already accomplished so much and I am proud of you. You can do this!

    • jeninRL September 26, 2010 at 6:13 pm #

      you are amazing!! and you will ROCK that half in december!!

  3. Ivette Muller September 26, 2010 at 3:33 pm #

    What a great post! Yes, in theory it seems “easy” to eat less and move more but it takes will power, determination and hard work. Weight Watchers helps lay a great foundation for losing weight, but the rest is up to us. Good luck on your journey – I will be cheering you on! 🙂

    • jeninRL September 26, 2010 at 6:13 pm #

      thank you, I can always use more cheering!! xox

  4. Tara September 26, 2010 at 4:23 pm #

    Whoa looks like we both are getting back to basics. I just got done writing about my own and then saw this post. Great minds….

    • jeninRL September 26, 2010 at 6:12 pm #

      most definitely great minds!

  5. Nadine September 26, 2010 at 11:10 pm #

    I remember one of my very first comments to you was to ask why you had given up WW. If you were successful on the program of course you can always follow it, without paying for it (I’ve always found Points easier to deal with than calories) – and I’m a sucker for doing what works!! — You are really, really good at stepping back and looking at your situation and making a plan.

    I am super proud of you for continuing with the 1/2. I am also making a goa to just finish. I have been sidelined most of the summer with my IT band, but I’ve been training now (not nearly as much as I should) — so I’ve given up my time goal and I’m focusing on finishing on my OWN schedule.

    I love your plan — you may want to also incorporate body measurements — pictures from week to week won’t show a whole lot of change — but tape measure will!!

    Can’t wait to see how your journey continues.

    Sorry for the long response. Its been a while since I’ve been able to catch up!

    • jeninRL September 27, 2010 at 12:42 am #

      I had to stop WW – I could not justify spending $40 per month…it just wasn’t in the budget…it still isn’t. I know I learned so much from WW and I am glad that I started there. Part of B2B is to incorporate the healthy living guidelines I learned at WW and use them as the focus of my diet (way of eating not calorie restriction kind of diet). I don’t want to count points, or calories for that matter, but I am going to keep tabs on my calories and go back to tracking everything I eat. I will count the cals at the end of the day just to see how it all adds up. I think the conscious effort of writing down everything will help me,

      As for my half, I am not ready to give up on that goal. I may have wasted a whole lot of time not training but I want to do it!! I need to do it!

      Thanks for the long comment – please, no apology needed! I appreciate your comments, suggestions, and friendship! MUCH LOVE!!

  6. DareToBecome September 27, 2010 at 1:47 pm #

    Jen, here is what I love about you – you always keep it real. You never blame anyone else and are accountable to yourself. I love being on this journey with you.

  7. Patty@NYC Girl at Heart September 28, 2010 at 2:01 am #

    Way to go JEN! I love your plan and want to support you 100% in any way I can. You can do this and I’m so glad to be able to share your journey. I have 45 lbs left to do and I am running my first 5K on 10/23! I’m so excited!

    P.S. Cant wait to meet you at Fitbloggin!

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