rambling recap of last week and a half

23 Oct

I have not posted since last week’s Half Marathon and I have so much I need to get off my chest.

*Big Man’s cousin went to the hospital last week and had 50/50% chance of making it through. He made it through that first night. We have since found out that cousin had not been taking care of himself (no work, no money, no insurance) and he was/is in complete kidney failure.  Cousin has been making progress after many transfusions and dialysis. He should be home soon

*A friend died suddenly last weekend. Big Man found out while I was running my half. Friend was 43 and he was just gone. He left 3 children and wife behind. No one is really sure what happened.

*Adolf, our oldest cat, is 17+ years old and he has been sick.  He has had a hyperactive thyroid and on medication for over a year and a few weeks ago he had a nasty upper respiratory infection. The infection got worse and this week my little man sounded so horrible and he stopped eating. Big Man was so beside-himself-upset and we prepared for the worse. The vet ran some tests and took some x-rays and my little man should get better with heavy duty antibiotics. He is old but he is on the mend.

*I have been on such an emotional roller coaster this week. On one hand I finished my fist half marathon and on the other hand we have had such sadness.

*On top of all that, we are still struggling financially. As we get closer to Christmas, I stress a little bit more. Stress is hard. I want to sleep all the time and when I am just tired and it isn’t bed time I want to eat!  This week was tough with the added vet bill.  We will get through it is just rough right now.  I am so tired of being broke but as long as there is food on the table and a roof over our head I will not complain. But, being home all the time and not having the money to do anything (and I mean anything) starts to mess with my head.

*I am feeling a little lost. I finally got into the swing of my training and I completed my task! I set the goal of completing a half and I did it…now what?!? I haven’t run all week! I thought I would run today but I wound up cleaning the house and running errands and time seriously slipped away.

*There has been some really good news as well this week: 4 baby boys were born in the last week and a half. My cousin, our friend’s wife, a coworker’s wife, and Jenn all had baby boys in the last week or so.  I love babies!!

I still have about three posts rambling in my head but this is all I can handle right now. Stay tuned! I have some interesting topics coming up:

1. what I have learned from running.

2. new goals

3. a twitter by the same name

4. Reader’s choice (Hit me up in the comments – tell me what you want to read all about)

So there you have it! I have rambled and cried! I have been crying a lot lately and I can’t seem to stop myself.  Thanks for hanging in until the end!

Tell me, what do you want to read all about…


18 Responses to “rambling recap of last week and a half”

  1. KLI October 24, 2010 at 4:27 am #

    we need to run together soon!!! i miss you!! xoxo

    • jeninRL October 24, 2010 at 2:55 pm #

      YES PLEASE!! Can we run Thursday?

  2. Nadine October 24, 2010 at 8:08 am #

    I’m sorry for all the bad…sometimes it feels like it all runs together. But you do have a lot of good things going on to balance it out.

    You are NOT alone — I have also not run (or, done anything exercise-wise) since last Saturday (my 1/2) — I let a lot of excuses get in the way after a couple of days of planned rest — but, mostly, there is a true let down after training for an event. I think that’s why so many people get addicted to the feeling — of not just the race, but training for ‘something’. It gives you a sense of purpose and accomplishment.

    So what works for me is just making a training schedule that incorporates running, weight training and if I’m lucky some sunrise yoga. 🙂

    Proud of you girl…you’re doing it!

    • jeninRL October 24, 2010 at 2:57 pm #

      Thanks Nadine,

      You have become a very good friend to me and I appreciate all your support and encouragement. I think the stress just added to that post-race letdown….I didn’t even know that would happen!

      Thanks for sticking with me!

      much love!

  3. MizFit08 October 24, 2010 at 10:44 am #

    can I tell you how…honored I feel when you text me?
    share away all the time. anything. vent. I SOOO GET IT ALL.

    • jeninRL October 24, 2010 at 5:47 pm #

      thanks C! I like to imagine the texting is our way of catching up with a cup of coffee!! MUCH LOVE!

  4. Jen, a priorfatgirl October 24, 2010 at 2:30 pm #

    Oy vey — I cannot imagine what a rollercoaster of emotions this past week was. I’ll keep you and everyone in your life in my thoughts.

    • jeninRL October 24, 2010 at 5:57 pm #

      Jen, I love that you say oy vey! Me too! and thanks for the thoughts, send your positive vibes!! XOX!

  5. @iRun2BeFit October 24, 2010 at 2:54 pm #

    Wow, what a week you’ve had. Sorry to hear about the stress… But that’s why you’re a runner, it helps with that stress!

    • jeninRL October 24, 2010 at 7:05 pm #

      Thanks! I need to remember that!

  6. KCLAnderson (Karen) October 24, 2010 at 3:59 pm #

    Hang in there kiddo…I would also imagine that there’s a sense of “let down” now that the half is over. Crying is not a bad thing…just let it all out when it needs to come out. You are strong and strong people know how to just be with their emotions 🙂

    • jeninRL October 24, 2010 at 7:49 pm #

      Thanks Karen! Big Man told me to cry this morning. I was fighting tears and I couldn’t even tell you why I was crying but I was fighting it. Big man told me to just cry it out…he knows me so well! Thanks for reminding me that I am strong…I just never thought that the stronger I get the more emotional I would become! 😉 Thank you for being a friend! much love !

  7. Lissa_ShrinkingJeans October 24, 2010 at 6:00 pm #

    Sorry to hear about the sad things… 😦

    I suffered from the post-race blues also, it’s kind of like, NOW WHAT? ;p


    • jeninRL October 25, 2010 at 2:17 am #

      Sad things suck! I am trying to stay positive, as is my nature, but I am having a hard time doing that!

      I have decided to get over the now what blues by training for another half….albeit virtually. All sorts of peeps will be in Disney for a half or a full in January and I cannot go to Florida! BUT I can hang in NJ and run virtually. Wanna join me?!?

      • Lissa_ShrinkingJeans October 25, 2010 at 11:46 am #

        If it wasn’t winter and horrible in ND during that time, I would definitely train with you!!! I do not think I have the mental capacity to train on a treadmill though!

  8. KIMpossible October 24, 2010 at 8:57 pm #

    I’m really starting to think life is all about the “ups and downs”. It’s one big freakin’ roller coaster of emotions and the idea is to not go cRaZy (or if you do, to at least appear normal to others – ha!).

    I’m sorry about all the sadness going on. Peaks and valleys…and repeat. Good things will come your way again soon! *Hugs*

    • jeninRL October 25, 2010 at 2:15 am #

      I suddenly am singing in my head….”life is a highway, I wanna ride it all night long!”

      Thanks for listening to me gripe and vent! I needed to get it off my chest and here is where I come to chat with my friends! Thank you for being a friend!
      Much love!

  9. Anonymous October 25, 2010 at 3:17 am #

    Set a new goal, my friend. It will help with that floundering feeling…

    And i’m so sorry life is kind of poopy right now.

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