blahs by the bullets

26 Apr
  • yep, as you guessed it, this post will be written completely in bullets.
  • I have had the case of blahs. I have lots of reasons for being blah – but for the most part it comes down to money. My husband just recently started a new job but he had been out of work for more than two years – I am only just starting to realize how much this has all weighed heavy on me (pun totally intended). I would need a whole blog post to really delve into this and I may write it but for now, acknowledging is all I can handle.
  • I have not been eating great.
  • I have not been fitnessing with any real consistency.
  • I have not given up but I was definitely hiding.
  • I was even called out for hiding – basically I was told than I hide when I am not doing well.
  • Even though I have started asking for help when I need it (another whole post all by itself), I still tend to hide and keep all my issues to myself.
  • I am the cheerleader – I want to lift you up.
  • It is not easy for me to show my Debbie Downer side – my problems are small when you think about real problems.  I have my health and my family and their health – the rest will work itself out….I hope.
  • So I hide.
  • The blahs took hold of me and I am having a hard time shaking  them.
  • I am adjusting to my new “schedule” with Big Man working again.
  • I am allowing myself to feel feelings that I didn’t know were there.
  • Apparently freaking out and feeling like a freak is part of this journey.
  • Well people, I am in full feel like a freak mode. I cry at random moments for random reasons.
  • I am going to my darndest to fight the good fight (ok, fighting the blahs is not so dramatic as all that but it sounded good when I said it as I wrote it).
  • Today, I ran! I went out for a morning run with Lucy, my puppy.
  • Today, I woke up and went for a run before I did anything else.
  • Ok, ok, it is spring break so it was easier to do but I am hoping I can work on it this week and next week it will be easier to continue waking and running right away.
  • Yep, I am going to try before school morning runs.
  • I am going to fight the blahs head on –  I am tired of being tired…and headachy and just all-around achy and I know a lot of that is due to blahs.
  • DONE – I am so done with these damn blahs! I am DONE.
  • D
  • O
  • N
  • E
  • DONE
  • Moving on and moving forward.
  • Please stay tuned, because happy and loveable and upbeat, perky Jen will return!

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7 Responses to “blahs by the bullets”

  1. AnnG April 26, 2011 at 10:38 pm #

    I could have written this myself…wow! I am so inline with those blahs I totally could have written this. In fact I was just sitting down to do so…maybe now I won’t have to! Maybe I will just copy and paste!! Much love and heres to BOTH of us getting out of the BLAHS!

  2. Bari April 26, 2011 at 10:48 pm #

    (hugs) I hope the blahs get outta dodge. Enjoy your spring break!

  3. Kirsten April 26, 2011 at 10:50 pm #

    Hugs, girl. Im sorta the same way about hiding out. You’ll get through. But don’t forget just because you are blessed doesn’t mean your worries and feelings about changes in your life are any less important.

  4. Jules - Big Girl Bombshell April 26, 2011 at 11:10 pm #

    Oh girl..we have a lot in common…would love to read those “whole posts” Big Puppy has been out of work for several months now. Being the cheerleader while still stressed worried and such..

    and just so you know..it doesn’t matter if you are perky and upbeat or debbie downer… you are well loved any way it shapes up!

  5. phatbff April 26, 2011 at 11:26 pm #

    Muah! Xoxo! Rockstar!

  6. Marisa @ Loser for Life April 27, 2011 at 9:07 am #

    Hang in there, Jen! I’m sorry we couldn’t run away the BLAHS together this Saturday 😦 In the meantime, I’m sending ya virtual hugs.

  7. Thea @ Im A Drama Mama April 28, 2011 at 11:29 pm #

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