As you know, Saturday always starts with a weigh-in! Well, I weighed in alright and I am NOT happy! WARNING: I cannot be positive but I am sure there will be some (if not a lot) of cursing in this post!
I was already planning on switching up the structure of Saturday Scale Time and I still am…after my rant!
I knew I was going to gain this week! I am not making excuses at all! I ate way too much food and way too many not-healthy options. I did not exercise very much, if at all! I lazed away this school vacation and I needed it!
I knew I was gonna gain!
But, I went to my Weight Watchers meeting! I knew I needed to know that number and move forward!
I gained 6 fucking pounds this week!
Really!!
6 fucking pounds!!
Last week I gained 2.6!!
In two weeks I gained 8.6 FUCKING pounds!!
How is that even fucking possible!?!?
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
I FUCKED UP!!
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
AAAAUUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!
I stayed for my WW meeting! I wanted to run and hide and scream and cry!! The last thing I wanted to do was come and write about this weigh it!! I didn’t want to tell anyone, especially you!!
Ok, to be honest, it is 3pm and my meeting was over and I was home by noon! I did hide a little bit! I twittered and read blogs! There are some amazingly awesome people with a great gift for writing a blog that I swear was meant just for me! Well, today I set off to read some inspiration.
I would like to thank all of my fellow weight watchers (no matter where you are in the journey or what program you work)! I also want to thank two friends, who also blog about weight loss!! Your words helped me this morning! I could have very easily wallowed in self pity and self loathing but your posts made me really think!
- Steve, of Log my Loss and the Perfect 10, wrote about New Year’s Day and it got me thinking. I didn’t really track yesterday and I did not work out. At first, I thought I was already a failure but then I kept thinking: I ate rather well and I drank lots of water. and I organized myself! I set up schedules and made it so my health came first. I am so ADD and I know that if I plan and schedule I will be successful. I also know that if I don’t finish some cleaning projects (de-Christmasing for one) I will not be able to concentrate! Plus, I needed to get the tree down to get to my treadmill!
- My girl Shannon, aka the Fabulous Fattie, had a perfect post today about the New Year’s Fairy! OMG, Shannon is too dang cute so go read her blog!! The one thing about her post that sticks out the most (beside the cute fairy – who was pretty darn cute!) is this quote, “Make sure you do your part to make your resolution become reality. All it comes down to is our choices. Day by day making the right choices working towards our goals.” Thanks Shannon!! I will remember the little things!! I am going to make sure I do my part to be successful this year!
I learned a lot in 2009! I learned about healthy living and I learned about living! I still have much to learn but I am so ready for the ride!!
2010 (pronounced twenty ten) is the YEAR OF JEN!!!
2010 is the YEAR OF JEN!!
It is going to be my year! I am going to apply all the good stuff I have learned!! I have set reasonable goals! I WILL be successful!
Yesterday, I made several calendars to use as a schedule for the next 4 weeks. I scheduled my workouts, my chores, and my blog and lesson plan times. I will stick with this schedule for the next 4 weeks. I will evaluate at that point but I can see this will be a huge improvement for my time management! I may not have the time to tweet as much but I will be blogging more regularly. I know I will feel way less stressed if this all works out the way I hope it will!
Tonight I am going to the grocery store (we usually go on Saturdays so this is nothing new) but I will be getting supplies. While I am still following my Weight Watchers, I am going to take a little detour and eat a certain way for the next few weeks. I am basically going to be eating grilled fish or chicken and tons of veggies plus oatmeal and fruits. It is not far off but I am going to really focus on healthy, un-processed foods. I will continue to drink my coffee with sugar-free french vanilla but I am going to slowly cut back! I feel like this is just the cleanse I need! I need to purge all the holiday gunk out of me!!
I think I have told you all everything!! I will take my measurements tonight – It has been like 2 months since I have done those and I figure now is as good as anytime!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!! Thanks for listening to me rant and rave today!! We all have bad days but I feel much better now!!
On a bloggy note:
Saturday’s format will be a bit different. I will still give you my new numbers but I will also give you an update of my Rethink your Shrink goals. (Perfect 10 will get updated on Fridays, usually in the afternoon)
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Jen, you ROCK and I know you CAN DO THIS! I completely completely completely understand your mini-meltdown (hi, I have been trying to lose weight for something like 6 years and only recently have been consistent/successful) and I am so proud of you for regrouping and making a plan to follow through on to turn this around.
Gains happen sometimes. But all of that bad eating and not exercising and gaining weight is in the past now and you are going to rock the fitness lifestyle in 2010!
Hello, are you trying to copy me or what?? I’ve had huge gains too! BUT, as of this morning, I am down four from last weigh-in, so hopefully I can keep it up! Why does it have to be so fucking hard??
Love your cussing, I mean attitude. 😛 2010 WILL be the year of Jen, I know it!
Girl – you and I are in the same boat!!! I gained 6 pounds over the holidays, WOOT!! Screw it, it’s behind us. You’ve got your plan together and you’ll be dropping those lbs in no time. We’re all here for you and going through the same thing. Let’s move forward and to hell with what’s behind us (literally stuck on our behinds as well!)
Happy 2010!
Tina
well said Jen! all the best as you make this journey. you’ve done the hardest part. you faced the scale and made plans. now stick to them and you will be just fine. i also like that you are going to re-evaluate your plans in 4 weeks. that is key. continuously making changes based on what does and doesn’t work. cheering you on!
ok..you had your scream fest…now stand up…tell yourself it is ok…you learned something and now move on…you know what to do and we got your back…and your arse to kick!!
Mwah baby…we ALL have these weeks…YOU need to just focus on what you have maintained and regroup…I know you can do this Jen..YOU are a warrior woman!
whew – tough week! But, it’s an up and down, roller coaster type lifestyle. Keep your chin up and do what you know we should be doing! Can’t wait to see what’s in store for you in 2010!
First I gotta say you made me giggle. Not because of your gain but because of your rant!! I had that exact same “F” filled rant last week!! I gained as well (10 lbs) so you’re not alone. But we need to remember it happens. It will continue to happen. Now…what do we do when this happens is what will be different. Do we just give up and gain 6 or 10 more lbs?? Hell no!! We get up off the couch, wipe the pizza cheese off our mouth, take a deep breath and kick some ass!! Here’s to OUR success in 2010!! xoxo
The holiday gains stink, don’t they? I am in the same boat, but like you, I am back on the plan full force. I love you mantra for 2010 too! It is going to be an awesome year – a Perfect 10!
Don’t you hate it when you hit submit a second too early?
Thanks for the shout out. I am glad to read the post helped put the day in perspective.
Wow, girl, tough week! I feel your pain. I’ve totally had those weeks (more than I care to remember). The key to success is getting back on plan (or staying on plan) and never giving up. You can do this! I know you can.
omg, Jen, I know those exact feelings. First – the ww meeting where you have to stay and listen and be calm, when all you want to do is scream and cry and throw the metal chair your sitting on into a wall. Second – that “FUCK!” feeling when you gain so much in such a small time. Hopefully some of that will come off just as easily as it came on ~ and if anyone can kick those pounds’ ass, it’s you! You got this, lady! Twenty ten is the year of JEN! 😀
Please don’t beat yourself up. I know it’s incredibly frustrating, but the trick is to move on. And I know you are going to. Today is fresh with no mistakes in it…and if you make another mistake…hey, you are human, right? Just get up again. Get back on that horse. You have our support XXOO!!!
Don’t be too hard on yourself. You’ve learned what you need to learn, and it’s time to move on. Focus on your end goals and believe in yourself. You can do this. You have a lot of people supporting you, including me 🙂
Don’t be too hard on yourself. You’ve learned what you need to learn, and it’s time to move on. Focus on your end goals and believe in yourself. You can do this. You have a lot of awesome people and groups supporting you, including me 🙂
I have a love and hate relationship with scales. I understand your struggles. You’re packed and ready for your journey to success. We are all here to support ya chicka!!
We all have bumps – you seem pretty spunky – kick some booty and go girl!
How amazing are you! I love how angry you were (and I would have been the same!) at the beginning of your post and how you totally turned it around and spun it in a way more positive light. We all have bumps in our journey. Its a way to remind us that it is HARD work to lose weight and a great accomplishment when we do lose. How can you not get back on track when you have all of us backing you 150%!!
I gained over the holidays also. But now I’m doing better and it sounds like you are too. So I guess we just look forward now. Good luck!